This weekend I have been all over the map. I've been happy and sad, left of center, under the weather, over the top...all the superball direction changes i normally complete in a week happened in 2.5 days. I'm not sure what to think about it. Right now I am on the verge of tears, but because i am an optimist, I know that this is the just the doorway to something big and amazing.
I feel like I belong on the beach in the wind and weather, hair whipping about, waiting for a message from the universe with my arms outstretched. I want to unplug from the daily wear and tear of the ordinary and get a direct connection with all that is wonderful in the world. I really want to find the catalyst to take the ordinary and make it extraordinary at the same time. I want to find underlying sacredness of all that is and burst forth.
I want to explode into the world and experience the interconnectedness of everything that is, the interconnectedness that I call GOD.
The first response was "Hormones?"
Coming from this particular friend, this is not an insult, more a question regarding what is going on in my life at the moment. However, it set me off like a firecracker and got me to thinking about how people feel free to dismiss things they don't want to hear by calling the speaker "hormonal." I had been rethinking my stance on the whole issue because of the breakdown/breakthrough that I recently experienced (thank you Jenna for posting that quote by Caitlyn on FB, it was especially appropriate for my weekend).
I have dismissed the words and thoughts of others because I perceived there was a hormonal imbalance at work. I have dismissed my own words and thoughts because of the slightly left of center feeling that I experience when I am hormonally charged. I find it disheartening that we dismiss, and encourage others to dismiss, our most honest thoughts because they are born at a time of hormonal change/shift/realignment.
The surge of hormones that race through my body during their specific times in the month do not cause me to lose reason. They cause the line between "too much trouble to bring up" and "too much trouble to leave it alone" to blur and disappear. They allow me the ability to bring things into the spotlight, highlight "minor" things that could have major significance.
Why not honor these hormonal times? Why not harness the power of change?
