Trying something new...

and I'm nervous as a cat about to kitten. I'm all decked out in my armor...which consists of a pair of Spanx and a stiffly padded bra. Now you might wonder how these are armor and why I would need it.

The bra can repel speeding bullets and the Spanx are designed to keep my insides, in, should I be eviscerated. Sounds dangerous, right? Well, I'm just going to church.

As a queer person, it is not always comfortable going to a place of worship. It has been a few years since I have been to shul, and while I was always welcomed there, I often wonder if has more to do with the fact that I look straight.

I'm conflicted about faith/worship/religious communities, but I miss the fellowship and I believe that there will be a place where I fit. I am scared to take this step, but I cannot live in fear. So today I will take this step into my fear and come out the other side and take stock of all my innards and see how I've fared.